Thursday, September 30, 2010 4:42 PM
Maybe he's doing the same thing as me. Maybe he wants to call me so badly, but just won't because I haven't called him. Then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.
Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.
How do I get back the trust I lost when you constantly lie. Every question that I start with why, I really don't need you reply, because I already have the answer with the vision in my mind. Our future is so unclear, with the upcoming year. Anticipating the next fight I know it's near, but nowhere to go is my worse fear. I wish I didn't feel this way, wish I could believe you but the sneakiness gets in the way. I pray so I can start trusting in my maker, instead of trusting man who keeps getting faker and faker.
Went to ECP with Gwen & Xiao Qian yesterday.