Monday, October 19, 2009 10:19 AM
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Don't know what shall I do today. Ah Fat is still sleeping. How I wish I can be with him every single day.
Was chatting with Diana last night, talked a lot. Life, pasts, Boyfriends etc. She said its normal for me wanting to meet Darling everyday because she's the same too. Sigh sadly, Darling just don't understand.
Darling, I'm sorry if I've done anything to make you unhappy but I really don't mean it. Because most of the time you showed me that you don't care, it kinda upsets me and made me want to have more of your attention. I love you that's why I want to share every single day with you. This is my way of showing love but at times I feel so rejected by you. I complain real lots. It's because I want you to understand me more. I want you to say and show me that you misses me, you loves me. Every time when we quarrel, the quietness you maintained is not to make things worst (I suppose). I can see the effort you've given but I yearn for more because I always try to give more too. At times I really feel like giving up but I persevere. I'm glad that you did not gave up on me too. I wish and hope that I can see a small future within us instead of heading nowhere. I Love You.