Saturday, October 31, 2009 6:26 PM
Sigh, what's up with me? I've been opening wrong computers and on packages for nothing. Totally spoils my mood.
Was disturbed and threatened by Papa's irritating voice over the speaker early in the morning for area duty if not no home leave/time out. Dragged myself up from bed, brushed my teeth and headed to the male toilet. Started scrubbing with Karen. Normally, it'll be an easy job because we'll just spray water everywhere but we're being monitored today. Sheesh, no choice but to put all our effort in.
When I was about to leave with PeiShi, the staff called me. Chased me back for home leave today. Hello, you only told me that you'll be preparing me for home leave, you did not ask me to go back for home leave today! Tcha, still have the cheek to raise your voice at me.
Asshole.
Friday, October 30, 2009 7:26 PM
Weehee! Winnie saves the Home.
Tried to reach the circuit box in the morning using one chair but can't. Too short. So I decided to forget it and wait for some kind souls to fix it but till just now, no one did. Sigh, so I went to stack more chairs, climbed up and click! Tada, all the electricities are on :)
Went to look for Darling in the noon. Nothing much but only joking around.
Short circuit! This explains why I am awake so early despite the fact that I've only slept for 2-3 hours. I'm not tired anyway~
Aiyo hot la!
Thursday, October 29, 2009 11:44 PM
Waiting for Darling to call me again. Maybe half an hour more?
Hmm, so I did went to look for Darling just now for a couple of hours. Wanted to stay a bit longer but he was so irritating that I left earlier. Kind of pissed off. But something good in return. In order to show his sincerity for being sorry, he said he'll bring me out on Sunday to buy clothes :D
(Random.)
Ohhh, I'm a satan. Someone says I have the potential to be a Bitcher. Thanks ehh! But so far not interested in Bitchering yet.
Gaah Safari web browser don't allow me to blog.
Anyway, I was one of the first ten poeple to rush down when the announcement goes:
Hungry people. If you're hungry, there's food for you. (Even though we just had Chicken Rice one hour ago.) I thought it'll be like tidbits or cakes for us to munch but Nasi Lemak -.- Too heavy so I just came back to my room.
Hmm random thoughts, wonder what is Pei Ling & co. doing right now. Aana and Esther must be slogging hard in hospital while Ms. Cheong Pei Ling is enjoying else where. Well, money is not everything but without money, you can't do anything. So sometimes I'm quite jealous of Pei Ling too. Haha whatever.
Darling is on his way to work now. He told me that he'll not be meeting me and so I guess I'll be staying in my room with PeiShi and Karen the whole damn day but no. He wants me to go over his work place later on. Haha so after all, he could not stand sitting alone in the lan shop with a bunch of monkies blasting their techno music (I don't know should I call that music in any way too) and playing FaceBook for almost 8 hours. So maybe I'll try and sneak out a bit later.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009 9:18 PM
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Playing with Bri's webcam. Darling is reaching home soon (Y).
Oh well, I'm trying to move back home asap. The staffs are getting ridiculous. Don't allow me to work and $150 per month only? Sheesh. Bullshits and craps out from them.
Darling has started working at Sky Lan II which is just 5 stops away from my hostel. I'm gonna go to his house, finish watching The Day After Tomorrow then accompany him to work. The place is total boring compared to Zoom Lan. Poor Darling. Jiayou luh!
Monday, October 26, 2009 8:34 AM
Darling you're the most wonderful creature on this planet. To be in your arms would be like in a paradise for me. I miss you so much right now :(
Sigh if there's a way, I would like to earn my own money, go out and rent a room for myself. No home, no hostel.
Sunday, October 25, 2009 2:05 AM
Now currently at friend house playing texas . Lost 10 bucks hahas . Sorry for neglecting my baby today lols .. A very sorry to you my sweet heart .. I tink i will be back home tomorrow morning . Perhaps? ahah . Baby u have to rest moreeee ~ I am so tired currently .. Tml meeting my baby . I . L .Y is wad i want to tell you right now hahas . muacksss ..
I can't sleep again. Wonder what is my Darling doing. Sleeping or having fun?
I can't find the words to say how charming you are ♥.
Saturday, October 24, 2009 3:48 AM
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I swear I'm so damn tired. I have yet to rest my eyes since last night. The Nike Human Race was alright. Kallang stadium route was the most terrible part because it's so huge, the u-turn is so far away, all you can see is thousands of red people in front of you. Some even cheated by climbing across the fence -.-
Met Darling after the run. Was so reluctant to leave him just now. Sigh, he'll be spending his night at his friend's place again. Pokers pokers pokers.
Was browsing through my archives, I feel that I'm a lucky and happy woman.
Thanks Bri for changing my messenger name which I did not even notice it until she confessed it before she sleep just now. Well, I'm so excited till I could not sleep. Nike run is just 6 hours away so I guess I'm not going to knock off.
Darling's post is making me smile constantly. Realistic but sweet enough. He's gonna work soon so he won't have much time for me anymore. That's so sad :( Hehe but the good part is that the working place is kinda close to my hostel and he can afford to bring me out again.
Friday, October 23, 2009 4:09 PM
My turn to blog . :D . Never meet baby does really makes mi miss her alot . But i really do like missing someone den being wid someone . hahas . weirdo . Its such a nice feeling misssing someone . ^^ . RS seriously cannot meet everyday .. it really spoils the feeling . my baby i do miss u even now ^^ even though im in lan shoppe . im gonna start work during dec 1st . I am gonna help u blog more often . i miss you . my sweetie baby .
Thursday, October 22, 2009 9:17 AM
At times, I have a sudden fear of losing you.
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Had Live @ Teppan for dinner. Ming Chong's treat. I'm craving for tenderloins nowwww!
It has been some time since we've seen Tiger and he's so big now.
Caught by paparazzi for making out.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 5:38 PM
Heh Darling suddenly told me that we have not been going out for a long time to play so maybe he'll bring me out this Saturday (L).
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 7:03 PM
Still stuck in lan shop as Darling's game is still not ending yet. Sheeshcxz!
Went to school this morning, signed the paper and left. Reached Darling's house, watched DVD and took a short nap. Hmph he don't allow me to have even one pathetic mouth of ice cream as I'm having my period. But he promised he'll save some for me and let's hope his brother don't finish all of it =/
Monday, October 19, 2009 1:59 PM
Nike Human Race route.
-Blank-
Don't know what shall I do today. Ah Fat is still sleeping. How I wish I can be with him every single day.
Was chatting with Diana last night, talked a lot. Life, pasts, Boyfriends etc. She said its normal for me wanting to meet Darling everyday because she's the same too. Sigh sadly, Darling just don't understand.
Darling, I'm sorry if I've done anything to make you unhappy but I really don't mean it. Because most of the time you showed me that you don't care, it kinda upsets me and made me want to have more of your attention. I love you that's why I want to share every single day with you. This is my way of showing love but at times I feel so rejected by you. I complain real lots. It's because I want you to understand me more. I want you to say and show me that you misses me, you loves me. Every time when we quarrel, the quietness you maintained is not to make things worst (I suppose). I can see the effort you've given but I yearn for more because I always try to give more too. At times I really feel like giving up but I persevere. I'm glad that you did not gave up on me too. I wish and hope that I can see a small future within us instead of heading nowhere. I Love You.
Saturday, October 17, 2009 7:16 PM
I'm all alone in the pitch dark room, lying on my bed, waiting for the time to pass. I don't know whether I should feel blessed or sad when staying at this kind of place. I feel so empty. Whose ever there to understand what we want? At times I feel that I should not be staying here, accepting all kinds of stupid people's attitude but where else can I go? Home is definitely not a place for me.
Now Darling have broke his sim card, I have learned to put my phone aside because there's nothing much for me to expect. I miss your name appearing on it's screen, the sweet words in my ears were never so mean. It's a bittersweet moment to miss you. It is a game, a maze that's driving me so mad. I love you so much, this I know for sure. Everything you've said is clear in my mind. We laid in your bed, I held you so tight. Though you had to go, we kissed enough to smile. Thinking of being with you and what I lack, every time I see you, my heart falls back. Darling I love you without any regret.
Sometimes I just wish I can escape from everything and live life the way I want to. Seriously speaking, actually I've got so much fantasies about killing my mother. Maybe adding some poison in her food or what so ever? I always feel that if she's not around, life will not be so miserable as it is. What's more she is only 46 this year. When will she dieee?
Sigh, I should be hanging outside with Darling right now but old man suddenly go mad, I was shouted by him this morning and now the whole home is being confined as well. Aiya, all die better la.
Friday, October 16, 2009 5:27 PM
So fast, another year has gone in a flash of eyes. Another group of people from Doulos Ship is here once again. Had great fun singing with them :D
Sometimes I just don't understand what adults want us to do. Yesterday, the staff came to me, saying that they need to review my allowance because I'm spending too much and that they do not have much money left. What the fuck? Those money are coming from Papa's pocket and what are you guys grumbling for if Papa didn't? I suggested that let me go out and work but the answer is no. Sheesh go and die la.
Thursday, October 15, 2009 8:11 PM
I don't know why but I'm very happy even though I was in hostel the whole day. Darling is starting to be real nice again. Xoxo!
Had cooking lesson, made jellies and pineapple tarts. I'm bringing it for Darling tomorrow :)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 6:35 PM
My stomach feels like washing machine, churning and churning around. I've just vomited and totally don't feel like eating even though I've not eaten for the whole day. I'm walking like an old hag now, slow and easy due to the strain on my back. Just let me die.
Sigh, our relationship have been going off track recently. I don't seem to understand you, neither do you want to open up. How is this going to continue? I love you and I miss you, I really really do. After all, it's about give and take. If I can tolerate, why can't you? There's no limitation in love. You'll do the stupidest thing you ever can. If we were like in the past, everything will still be as happy as it is.
Had windsurfing yesterday and I think I'm half paralyzed now! My back is aching real bad and muscle relaxant spray doesn't helped at all :(
Went to meet Section Head just now, there's alot of yes and no. So end of the day, decision still lies in me. I'm not going to continue. I'm a very typical girl and easily contented. What's life to me? Still marriage and kids. There's always a way out.
There's a saying that goes 'Please keep your 5 senses comments as thoughts' but seriously and personally, I feel that I really want to blog this out. What's wrong? Ok let's start. That Kelly is really making me laugh my ass off. I've never seen such a hypocritical woman before especially when she's already 21 and getting married! Oh my dear Lord. How is her husband going to suffer under her hands? Papa always teaches us 'Confrontational Therapy' and I'm applying right now. I dare to do it, I dare to admit. How much bullshit have she done behind us and yet denying it? I've just confronted her and poof! Straight she went offline. That's so pathetic. And now, poor Esther is suffering because Kelly is pin-pointing at her for saying things behind her back. What goes around comes around, so just shut your fat ass and disappear from our life. TYVM!
Monday, October 12, 2009 10:03 AM
Although I've did nothing wrong, but the thought of meeting the Section Head is still kind of terrifying despite the fact that she's nice and sweet.
Darling starts his work today and I'm gonna be real lonely from now on. But of course, I'll definitely look forward to his pay day! Hehehe!
Papa says I'll just stay in AG, go windsurf, go running, sit in the sickbay and he's willing to pay me $400 per month. Haha seems little but I'm actually doing nothing, so I don't think I have the chance to complain.
Anyway I wonder do girls have some weird symptoms when their period is coming. Mine is that I've been farting like madcxz :x
Sunday, October 11, 2009 10:26 AM
I'm at Darling's friend's house now. Sheesh they're busy gambling their Texas Poker. Stupid Darling, never ever win once.
Called my CP teacher, she'll arrange an appointment with Section Head for me. Papa wana tag along too. Then I think I'll stay in AG, go windsurf abit, run abit, help out abit. Papa asked me to pray hard that my parents will make alot of noise and he can handle them.
Signed up for Nike 10km Human Race already too. Hope everything goes well.
Friday, October 09, 2009 1:45 PM
Well, I've actually given a long thought about it. Or perhaps, since the start of the year I already had this thought. I'm going to quit my course and work in a clinic. I've already sent my request form to Papa and I really hope he will agree to it and give me an answer by the end of this week because attachment starts next week, I don't wish to waste anymore time. I just see no future in this course.
When I told Darling about it, I thought he would scold me at the start but he didn't. He feels the same way too. Why continue wasting time on a course if I don't enjoy it and to me, I feel that it's a 'dirty' job. Okay whatever it is, I'm very determined and I will not regret it.
Waiting for my gunbound to load and play with Darling :D
Thursday, October 08, 2009 12:05 PM
KFC, Ritz, cup noodles, Hor Fun, egg tarts & breads..
I think I'm becoming a big fat monster. Had KFC with Darling for dinner and when I went back to hostel at night, I was kind of hungry(or perhaps, 'itchy mouth'), I finished Bri''s whole packet of Ritz biscuit. Still hungry after swallowing down all the biscuits, I thought of going down and ask the staff for a cup noodles. I told myself I must go back to room after the noodles so while I was happily eating my cup noodles with her, Melinda came, sharing her Hor Fun with us. Sheesh! So helped her finished half of it. Stupid breadman came after that and Melinda went to take some eggs tarts and breads!
I'm such a glutton ._.
What the hell is wrong with the new patcher! Stupid lan. Lousy keyboards, laggy, games always sot sot. Close down la!
Wednesday, October 07, 2009 4:04 PM
Tuesday, October 06, 2009 11:42 AM
Finally got the pictures on Boon's birthday.
After suana.
Stayed at the chalet till 9pm yesterday then Esther and Aana sent me out to bus stop. Stupid Pei Ling, hide herself in the room. Never even say goodbye. Sheesh. Attachment starts next week and I already feel like dieing.
Monday, October 05, 2009 2:52 PM
Yo, currently at Aranda Country Club. Pei Ling & co. having chalet here. Heh sorry uh, yesterday never come.
Went for sauna just now. Goodness! 5 minutes and I'm sweating like hell, as if I've just completed my 10km run. Sauna and steam room is totally different.
It was the fastest BBQ I ever had too. Starting of fire and cooking of foods only took us 1hour 15minute because it rained -.- Fish not cooked, chicken wings half cooked. Came back to our room, boiled the prawns and sotongs.
Now sitting at sofa, waiting for them to go for sauna again. Esther don't allow to rest! She feels that it's a wastage of time. Sheesh!
Sunday, October 04, 2009 2:13 AM
Another sleepless night and yet whose there for me..真想给你知道我是多么的爱你.
Saturday, October 03, 2009 8:53 PM
Stupid stupid stupid Darling. Always attitude me.
S.T.U.P.I.D
Better say sorry if you see this post if not I'm not gonna talk to you.
S.T.U.P.I.D A.S.S.H.O.L.E!
Chalet on Sunday and Monday. Obviously, I can't stay overnight but I'm gonna be a big eater and finish all the BBQ foods :D
Ok anyway, learning DotA from Darling was hillarious. He asked me to roll back to Audition within 15 minutes. Used Zeus, I don't know what to click, my last hit sucks and I love killing myself. Hahaha!
Friday, October 02, 2009 1:32 PM
1 more week before attachment starts. Sometimes I even feel like giving up because 90% I think I won't be working in hospital in future. Maybe a clinic?
Darling just ran finish and he is soaked in sweat. He say after he finish his this round of Dota, he's gonna teach me how to play.
-Preparing to get scolding in progress.-
Thursday, October 01, 2009 2:50 PM
Results day. I've got both grade B Clinical Nursing and Behavioural Science. Compared to first semester, not bad though. Improved. To think that I did not actually study much but used the laptop till wee hours at that period of time.
Bravo for Esther and Pei Ling for both As. Aana don't sad already yea? At least there is still 1 A! You can do better next time uh. You're already so stoney, sad some more, how stone can you be I wonder. Cheer up!
