Dis-illusionyous

2010-12-15T00:56:00.001+08:00

Stressed.

No one to talk to.

2010-12-13T11:11:00.002+08:00

Single.

Guess it's the best for both of us.

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭.

你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束,不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路.

2010-12-09T02:16:00.001+08:00

What do you need to do for yourself so that you can be available for others? What needs are going unmet? How can you be kind to yourself?

Hmm..

2010-12-08T00:22:00.002+08:00

My work at JP for the first day sucks totally. It makes me feel like giving up AGAIN. I'm suppose to be happy when I've decided to become a full timer of TBS but I guess I'm not for now. Now I don't know what to do :(

The scratch on my face is so obvious! I'm being disfigured. Ugly bitch.

2010-12-06T20:52:00.003+08:00

I'm back! Pictures are all in FaceBook.

Shopped like mad at there. Damn. Looking at my stuffs now, I'm wondering where did all the money went to.

2010-12-05T09:45:00.001+08:00

1st day- Arrived Genting at 4am, had some food, went back hotel to have some sleep before we start our day.

Had breakfast and went to purchase out theme park tickets. Sucks cus none of them dare to play the rides with me! So never play much in the theme park. But, i actually spent a few hundred SGD on the plushes! Only got 3 for myself as Desmond was too noob to win any for himself -.- Shopping spree aftermath. Damn happy!

2nd day at Genting and we're already bored of it. Now chilling at Starbucks, wondering what to do ._.

PS: The services at Genting sucks! It's not like Singapore! I can't stand it anymoreeee!

PSS: I'm coming back soon!

2010-12-03T19:21:00.001+08:00

Have been tansferred to JP outlet. Fuck it. Totally not happy at all. I miss my CCK team.

Will be leaving in 2 hours time.

PS: I'll miss all of you. Xoxo.

2010-12-03T01:23:00.001+08:00

Doing right is never wrong. Being honest and trustworthy is the way to live. Perhaps a slight twist of the facts might bring a short term gain. A little misrepresentation might bring some short term satisfaction. But in the end truth always wins.

Another day passed in a blank of eyes and I'll be leaving for Genting in less than 24 hours.

2010-12-01T23:53:00.002+08:00

Always feel so happy to see my 2 Stitch sitting on my bed the moment I stepped into the room. Shit. I think I'm getting more and more childish.

1 more day to Genting. Wonder how will the trip be.

Anyway, I'm suffering from massive hair loss. WHY?!

2010-11-30T23:22:00.001+08:00

Lousy day.

Woke up early and rushed to work place for meeting but it was canceled when I was about to reach. Damn. Totally pissed but managed to leave early from work.

A person can transform, a situation can transform, even the planet can transform. Never lose hope. Under the proper conditions of love, faith, and belief, transformation is quite possible.

2010-11-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

Nothing can describe how happy I'm feeling right now.

Everything seems to went smoothly for today. Went to school and submitted my report, received good comments from teacher. Went home and took my stuffs, nothing goes wrong too. Went to town with friends, received surprise from them. My most long wanted Stitch and Bebe Sheer 2010! Super happy :B

Anyway,

what if...

2010-11-29T02:43:00.002+08:00

Still wide awake.

Have been sleeping very very little recently. Work has been very enjoyable despite the fact that I'm so damn tired every single day. In a blink of eyes, attachment will be coming to an end. Bid goodbye to school life, hello to The Body Shop.

Needa go back to school for submission of report and presentation later on with Li Zhen.

So for now, let's just hope that everything goes on smoothly :B

2010-11-28T01:27:00.002+08:00

It has been quite some time I've really spend my time blogging.

Life sucks, as usual.

Moved out from home, currently staying at a friend's place.

The wisdom of a fool just won't set you free.

2010-11-20T16:52:00.005+08:00

It's all about food and us :B

2010-11-08T18:44:00.011+08:00

My public holiday was awesome!

Had lunch @ Dian Xiao Er and headed to The Singapore Flyer :B

2010-11-02T22:53:00.001+08:00

Fuck promises.

It make me feels as if I've made the wrong choices.

But am I asking too much?

I only yearn for your love and care. Does it really kills you?

2010-10-27T17:20:00.002+08:00

Darling and I was stuck in the room this afternoon due to the faulty door knob! So we hit down the whole knob!

Anyway, had Xmas training at Pan Pacific Hotel this morning. Got a Cranberry range of shimmer lotion as I was one of the early birds! Happy shit. Anyhow, below are some pictures of days with Body Shop :B

2010-10-21T10:09:00.001+08:00

Waiting for SIC to open the shop door right now. Super duper sleeping.

What I can say is that work has been very fun indeed. Customers are nice and loving (except for a minority). Colleagues are not just colleagues, but friends too :B

Spending my off days with Darling was the sweetest thing I ever had. Love you!

2010-10-19T11:33:00.009+08:00

It's just another small gathering cum Halloween Party :B

2010-10-17T00:27:00.001+08:00

My faith in you is fading. Waiting for you to do those small little things you used to do that'll make my day but I guess it'll never happen. Another day of hope gone.

2010-10-14T12:05:00.000+08:00

Why is that when I state it to my mind that I’m over you, you somehow start talking to me again and I fall for you one more time? Is this faith telling me to not let go?

2010-10-11T12:03:00.002+08:00

Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one to build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me. Well I never saw it coming. I should have started running a long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over.

Over You - Daughtry

2010-10-10T10:15:00.001+08:00

I just need you to be nicer on your words. Am I asking too much? Anyway it's the 10th again. It's just another 'so-what' day.

2010-10-07T14:19:00.001+08:00

Off day. Gonna go KBox with Darling.

Attachment at Body Shop was fine. Very glad that my colleagues are all fun people. We even have mutual friends too! Most happy thing is that Li Zhen is poste to the Bossini opposite me! Hehehe!

2010-10-07T13:15:00.001+08:00

Very happy with my own results :B

2010-10-03T14:31:00.001+08:00

I can't believe I'm doing this. Even if I reach a bit earlier, I have to hide somewhere till the time is up then I can see you.

2010-09-30T16:42:00.003+08:00

Maybe he's doing the same thing as me. Maybe he wants to call me so badly, but just won't because I haven't called him. Then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.

How do I get back the trust I lost when you constantly lie. Every question that I start with why, I really don't need you reply, because I already have the answer with the vision in my mind. Our future is so unclear, with the upcoming year. Anticipating the next fight I know it's near, but nowhere to go is my worse fear. I wish I didn't feel this way, wish I could believe you but the sneakiness gets in the way. I pray so I can start trusting in my maker, instead of trusting man who keeps getting faker and faker.

2010-09-30T12:44:00.014+08:00

Image heavy.

Went to ECP with Gwen & Xiao Qian yesterday.

2010-09-29T12:13:00.001+08:00

Second round of Hari Raya visiting yesterday! The bus driver madly earned a total of $280 plus from us. Instead of getting ulcer this time, I'm down with sore throat and flu. Damn. More photos not being uploaded yet.

2010-09-27T12:58:00.004+08:00

Oh and here's some pictures of the housewarming party cum Mummy Grace's birthday at their new place.

2010-09-27T12:43:00.002+08:00

Went shopping for my stuffs and watched 'I Love You Too' at Vivo. Empty pocket now. But nevertheless, thanks Darling! Xoxo.

2010-09-25T19:17:00.001+08:00

Finally met up with Darling :B

Went swimming in the noon and we're at Sherwin's house now for mahjong session. Hehe and shopping trip tomorrow!

2010-09-24T12:41:00.002+08:00

Went for Body Shop training yesterday.

I am truly touched by the actions of Dame Anita Roddick. She was the first to prohibit the use of ingredients tested on animals and did many campaigns. One of the campaigns which is on-going now is about sex trafficking. After watching the videos of the kids in Cambodia offering sex services, I really feel very sorry for them. So people, please help to sign the petition in Body Shop! Help these children!

2010-09-24T12:31:00.004+08:00

Mid-autumn Festival. Okay can see that how sucky Xiao Qian's handphone camera is.

2010-09-21T12:31:00.001+08:00

More pictures~

2010-09-20T13:20:00.003+08:00

Some food pictures of Hari Raya visiting :B

Went to JP yesterday and watched Devil. It kinda creeps me now whenever I'm in the elevator.

I still remember the smile when you tore me apart.

2010-09-20T13:20:00.001+08:00

Went to JP yesterday and watched Devil. It kinda creeps me now whenever I'm in the elevator.

2010-09-19T13:42:00.002+08:00

Went for Hari Raya visiting the whole day with my nursing class. One more round next week :B

Booked a bus and visited around 8 houses. Didn't managed to visit the last 5 houses as I'm too tired already. But overall, it was an eventful day!

2010-09-17T17:44:00.003+08:00

Made Strawberry Cheesecake with Pei Shi today! It's still in the fridge now. Wonder what will the outcome be. Excited much!

Never expect Within Temptation to have so many more nice songs.

Angels by Within Temptation:

Sparkling angel I believe
You were my savior in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

This world may have failed you,
It doesn't give you reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.

2010-09-15T19:31:00.002+08:00

"We said let go but I kept on hanging on. Inside I know it's over you're really gone. It's killing me 'cause there ain't nothing that I can do. Baby, I stay in love with you. And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around. And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down. See I can't get over you now. No matter what I do, I stay in love with you."

你想要的，我却不能够给你我全部. 我能给的，却又不是你想要拥有的. 我们不适合，却不想认输. 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭.

2010-09-14T15:20:00.001+08:00

Am at gym waiting for Darling and Sherwin to finish their workout. Gonna have steamboat later on. Super sleepy.

Was wondering how did I managed. It's not the kind of life I wanted to have. Things always get ruined when I started to feel that I'm so blissful.

2010-09-13T17:55:00.002+08:00

Finally all school load off. Had my RTP exam today. Glad that it was quite simple.

And not forgetting some pictures of our project for SBM.

2010-09-13T17:43:00.008+08:00

Darling's birthday on Hari Raya. Bought his cake at Perla's Pastry Boutique @ Takashimaya. It's very worth the price. Another mango cake bought by his parents. Celebrated his birthday at his place and off we went to Marina for movie. It's just a sweet and simple celebration.

2010-09-10T16:43:00.001+08:00

如果爱不那么深, 结局是不是就不会伤人?

I'm hardly happy nowadays.

2010-09-08T19:48:00.001+08:00

I've got a B for my VM test! Omg I didn't expect it.

2010-09-08T08:43:00.002+08:00

Had VM test before yesterday's bazzar. I'm not surprise if I'm gonna flunk this test because we spent most of our time concentrating on our bazzar. But the bazaar was a success. We earned a profit of $47! Though it's not a huge amount, but I bet we had fun doing it :B

And later on, VM practical test.

Sheesh.

2010-09-03T08:55:00.003+08:00

I don't know will you be reading this but I just have to say, it sucks totally!

When will you stop your gaming for at least 5 minutes and TALK PROPERLY TO ME?!

We spent half of our day in school, so I can accept that if we're not talking;
Then you spent another half day sleeping, I can accept cus you're sleeping;
AND THE REST ARE TOTALLY GAMING!

It has been some time since you can talk to me for more than 15 minutes! Your heart is nowhere near me. Do you realized that you have been so obsessed with your game that you have been neglecting me?

So what are you gonna tell me next? Tell me that this is you, I have to accept it? Yes I accept it but sometimes it's far too much! It's like, I don't even exist at all!

Fuck.

2010-09-01T12:49:00.001+08:00

The Burberry perfume I've bought for Darling :)

2010-08-31T18:27:00.002+08:00

I'm so gonna eat this next week!

Went back to secondary school in the morning and hung around till afternoon. The whole place is so hot without air-con! I wonder how we used to take it. Met all my old teachers too. Lovable people.

Am at Pei Shi's house now, waiting for dinner to be served (Y)

2010-08-31T16:03:00.002+08:00

So disappointed in you. I cant believe you said does things and don't even appreciate what I've done. I'll never be so dumb anymore.

2010-08-30T09:57:00.001+08:00

Trying to blog with Elizabeth's Samsung phone that she got it from YOG. Omg I swear this phone sucks!

And I'm damn hungry now :(

2010-08-27T23:15:00.001+08:00

Met up with Cousin and headed to town. Watched Grown Ups with Cousin and her boyfriend. As usual, Adam Sandler never fails to make the show great. It's damn funny.

Walked around after movie to shop for Darling's birthday present. The Burberry belt caught my eye! But Darling says he don't want anything :( He'd rather have me to save the money and buy a laptop for myself so that I'll stop disturbing him! Hmph.

2010-08-26T21:05:00.001+08:00

Went to Lot 1 and watched Step Up 3D (again) with Darling this time round. Had Pastamania for late lunch and I swear this outlet's pasta sucks.

Went back to my house and had a great time with Darling. Feeling so bliss :)

2010-08-25T20:26:00.001+08:00

I may not love you tomorrow but right now, I love you more than anyone I’ve ever known.

Helped dad to work in the morning. Parents are the best employer. We don't get scolded for slacking and we're highly paid too!

2010-08-24T23:08:00.001+08:00

Went to JP and watched Step Up 4 with Xiao Qian. The show is really awesome. The best dance movie I've ever watched.

Met Darling at West Coast aftermath and headed to my place. Darling and my mum ganged up and bad mouthed me! Urgh!

But afterall, had so much fun with Darling at home. Touched that he's willing to come and accompany me :)

2010-08-23T18:54:00.002+08:00

Passed Bossini interview too! Guess I'll be choosing Body Shop.

Had Watson training at SMU today. Turned out to be quite fun. (But I won't be going to expo and work for the Watson sale for it's kinda far.)

I hate old cranky woman. It's not my bloody fault and I'm always the one to be blamed. And you, I don't expect you to do anything but to comfort me. But what did I get from you? Nothing but scolding. Fuck it.

2010-08-22T12:27:00.001+08:00

I passed my Body Shop interview! Next will be Bossini.

Have been helping Dad to work at market these two days. Feeling kinda rich now =\

2010-08-20T21:01:00.001+08:00

Meaning never be in words;
Meaning are in people.
We don't mean what we say;
We don't say what we mean.

Had Body Shop and Bossini interview. It went very smoothly for both. If I'm selected for both, I'll most probably choose Bossini.

Darling's grandma have been quite cranky, causing some unhappiness between Darling and me. Cranky old woman are scary :o

2010-08-19T00:48:00.001+08:00

I'm at Pasir Ris Coasta Sand right now. Guys gambling and BBQ-ing. Uber bored. Kinda failed in BBQ cus the charcoal could not burn at all. After a few hours of attempt, in order to settle our poor tummy first, I had to boil the prawns and hotdogs in the water boiler!

Played Murderer till dawn. I swear the Chivas is damn not nice. And Darling was the first to drunk. Sheesh lousy ass.

Ps: I'm shocked that Mama allowed me to stay over!

2010-08-17T11:10:00.001+08:00

Hee didn't expect Darling to blog for me last night. Thanks Darling!

Accompanied Darling to the dentist yesterday. He had his wisdom tooth extracted. It cost him $880! I swear I'll take care of my teeth from now on.

Finally another tanning session after so long tomorrow! Then off for chalet at Pasir Ris. Can't wait for my kite flying session :B

Darling rest well yea? See you tomorrow!

2010-08-16T20:08:00.000+08:00

HI DARLING! SURPRISE ! hees . my mouth seriously is hurting badly right now .. so painful.. thanks for everything today . thanks for your accompany, thanks for your distraction , thanks for your understanding and etc ! i duno what should i say but it has been a long time since i post for youu! hees .okay anyway im really gonna go rest this time round ! haahs okk take caress lots!

2010-08-15T12:39:00.001+08:00

With all the extra classes, up-coming interviews, work training, kite flying session and chalet, I guess this 2 weeks holiday will be a hectic one.

2010-08-13T20:14:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's dinner was absolutely great. Around 100 people attended it. The song that the girls wrote for Papa and the speech Papa made (although it was so long that I had to shout for half-time), I almost cried. I'll always remember. We're his beloved princesses.

Come to think of it, it's hard to find someone like Papa. A man so passionate in his job. And it's not only a job to him, its his life. He poured his heart and soul into this home, love every girls like his very own.

Side track a bit. No wonder Darling and I quarreled today! It's Friday the 13! Yea bullshit.

But nevertheless, it's the start of 2 weeks holiday!

Chose Body Shop & Bossini for my up-coming attachment. Cross fingers my interview for Body Shop will be successful.

2010-08-13T11:31:00.002+08:00

2010-08-12T09:06:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Papa!

The best 'father' on Earth. He showered us with all his love despite the fact that we're 'nobody' to him. He pamper us like his very own and taught us many different things. Thanks to him, I get to attend running events and learn windsurfing. We did things we never thought we will be doing. I miss the times where we had devotion every evening and share our feelings. Love you papa!

2010-08-10T11:53:00.001+08:00

Happy 15 Monthsary!

Darling if I say I love you a million times, still it would not be enough because I just love you so much that no one can know how much. In my heart you'll always be here or there forever, forever. It feels so great having you around. The happiness that I feel, no one can ever describe.

2010-08-09T18:28:00.001+08:00

On the way to JP now. Gonna watch The Last AirBender again cus Darling and friends have not watch it :(

2010-08-08T01:02:00.001+08:00

Just reached home from Fico Sports Hub not long ago. Super tired mancxz.

2010-08-06T18:43:00.001+08:00

Watched The Last Airbender yesterday. I swear it's damn nice but it's a pity that it's only 1.5 hour. Wonder when will part two be out.

Had National Day celebration in school and headed to Queensway for pool session aftermath.

And yay! Darling passed his BTT! Next will be his FTT (Y).

2010-08-05T08:14:00.003+08:00

It's definitely not a nice thing to reach home seeing your own father laying on the living room floor dead-drunk.

Worst of all, it stinks.

Mama is asking me not to go school tmorrow again.

Blah.

2010-08-04T08:23:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's steamboat sucks. Spent an amount of $60.40 eating hotdogs, crabmeats and fishballs. How nice. (They do have meats but it sucks totally.)

Jeez.

Feeling kinda rich when I'm at home;

but nowhere for me to spend it!

Mama is asking me not to study. This is a no good stuff.

2010-08-03T12:53:00.001+08:00

This is absolutely ridiculous. My mum actually asked me not to go school because she needs to help my dad work and there's no one around to take care of my sister. She even asked me whether it's a must to attend school from Monday to Friday!

So I've brought my sister to school. Am at hostel now packing my stuffs. Gonna meet cousin for steamboat later on!

2010-08-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

Moving home. Hope things turn out well this time round.

Planning to save up my attachment money and hit Genting during December. Cross-fingers I'm able to save up!

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2010-08-02T18:14:00.006+08:00

Over distracted in class.

2010-08-01T16:03:00.001+08:00

When I was young, I actually felt shameful to have my dad driving me to school or any other place. Damn. How I wish he can drive me to all the places I need to go now! It's such a hassle to take public transport :(

Thinking back, if my brother have not left us, would things be a lot more different? Hmm..

2010-08-01T12:15:00.001+08:00

Some extra pictures of yesterday.. We're happy fat people.

2010-07-31T17:07:00.001+08:00

So nice of Darling to surprise me in the morning by coming over to my house and accompany me till my parents come home. Love you ahfat :)

Celebrated Sherwin's 18th birthday at Pioneer's Sakura!

2010-07-30T21:31:00.001+08:00

Waiting for the arrival of the bus home. I shouldn't be sitting here at this hour.

Instead, I should be at Sentosa Cafe Del Mar.

Happy Birthday Gwendolyn!

So sorry that I could not make it for your party!

2010-07-29T20:15:00.001+08:00

All I know is baby I try and try so hard to keep our love alive. If you don't know me at this point, then I highly doubt you ever will. I need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel, will you?

Sitting at the porch watching the girls dancing for YOG's arrival of the torch. How cool. I would very much like to participate but the only problem is about committement.

Hmm.

Go on. It seems like you're very affected. Great, this is what I wanted!

(Omg what the hell is wrong with Primary One homework now?! My sister just asked me two questions that made me blur and don't know how to answer!

Why does the small fish loves the big ocean?

And

Why the children loves Singapore?

WTF!)

2010-07-29T19:01:00.001+08:00

Life has not been so much happening including school issues.

(School issues once became my juicy gossip but I'm kinda bored of it now. Life have to move on still. But I'm sure this will definitely not make any impact in my life.)

And now, stepping into hostel and facing a fire drill, watching all the panick/cute/half-naked/disturbed girls carrying the fire extinguisher, rushing towards the carpark.

(Not forgetting to mention about how proud am I because our girls are involved in the YOG too!)

Many other issues running through my mind too;

Mock test,

Darling failed his evaluation test,

Tata.Yong having faith in me, urging me to go back to running life,

Two upcoming birthday parties (wondering how to tell my insecure mum that I'll be returning home quite late),

And perhaps some others which I can't really remember.

2010-07-29T12:15:00.002+08:00

If you worry a lot, then day after day you are learning how to worry even better.

If you think about doing something a lot, then you are learning how to think about doing.

Every moment you are happy, you are learning how to be even happier.

Every time you act, you are learning how to take an action even better.

What is it that you've been learning today?

What is it that you want to learn tomorrow?

Very sad to say, I'm not even disturbed by the surroundings at all.

(If you do not understand why I like to blog so much about things that may not matter, I would like you to know that I do not understand it too, but all I know is that since the inception of this blog, the only reader that matters is me.

Mistakes are packaged with personalities. Leave only when he/she does not want to change. There is no need to stay around.) -Brigette

2010-07-28T18:01:00.001+08:00

{Edited}

Just reached back from Darling's place. Tested him on his BTT and took a short nap.

Having an upset tummy. Have no appetite at all and whatever I've eaten, I'll just vomit it out. Have been vomiting twice daily for consecutively four days already.. (Perhaps I can use this chance to slim down!)

With congested lungs and phlegm in it, I guess I'm suffering from slight pneumoniaaaa!

2010-07-28T16:20:00.000+08:00

Wondering when is the lecturer gonna give us a break.

2010-07-27T17:26:00.001+08:00

Looking at the plush you gave me, I realised things had change so much in just 6 months time. Do you see/feel it too?

When was the last time you actually comforted me when you sense fear in me? When was the last time you told me you love me? When was the last time you told me that I'm your everything?

2010-07-27T16:12:00.001+08:00

Down with fever and sore throat. Having a splitting headache. Someone please put me on a stretcher and send me to A&E!

Didn't attended school and yet there's still so many problems. Few people calling me and telling me what's happening etc. Can't there be peace for a day?! Sheesh!

2010-07-26T19:45:00.001+08:00

Had a long chat with Nich.Tan after school. Now we've seen the truth. I know I did my part. I even have all the documents saved. I'm very glad to say that I'm not beaten down at all.

They sin so we do not sin what they'd sin.

Thanks people. You've brought me into an upper level of life. You've trained my tolerance level and the way to look at people. Cheers!

You all can continue all the nonsense for no one cares.

2010-07-25T12:54:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's night was the night I feared most. My emotions were totally not controlled, I almost broke down. I have no idea what was I doing, how I wish I can leave..

On the way to Fico Sports Hub for soccer with Darling and friends now (Y).

2010-07-24T20:59:00.001+08:00

Me: Eh can you don't lick your finger like that?

Darling: Why not?! It's finger lickin' good!

(This makes me totally speechless.)

2010-07-23T20:51:00.001+08:00

Oh TGIF! Another week down, five more weeks (35 days) to go.

Good gracious. Apparently, the way you acted and talked shows how immature you are. People like you argue using white words while we argue using our brains.

Will be changing to a new phone soon. Excited much!

2010-07-23T16:04:00.001+08:00

Stop shaming yourselves please.

Time is killing me. I've found a new hideout: School's library. Waiting for Darling to end school and I'm deprived of sleep!

2010-07-22T23:20:00.001+08:00

What the fuck? The same old thing happened again. Aren't you all sick & tired of always thinking that I'm refering to you all? Why think so lowly of yourselves?! Tsks.

2010-07-22T21:24:00.001+08:00

A day out with Zolyn!

Went to Cineleisure and watched Inception. Quite a nice show. Had Suki Sushi for dinner. Thanks for all the treat!

2010-07-22T10:08:00.001+08:00

You people can put on a fake smile and bitch the hell outta me but I don't give a damn cus at the end of the day, it just shows how immature you all are.

Sitting back and reminiscing.

Everything seems so perfect yesterday but not today. Feel like having a break from everything and have you by my side but I guess it's impossible. You'll never understand this feeling.

2010-07-21T22:26:00.001+08:00

I find that I'm always very wear out on Wednesday. Perhaps because school is from 9 to 5 and we had S&W. It's so hard to keep myself awake.

Had a little confession session from Darling after school. Wasn't that angry afterall cus everything was expected. Hope he'll really keep his promise. (If not I'll break his pinky.)

2010-07-20T19:21:00.001+08:00

Ok this Kotex box is damn cool.

I'm so annoyed by the incident in the morning. I need to cleanse my butt with some chemical now!

Was rushing to school and as usual, the train was damn packed. This fucking china guy actually stand so close behind me that I can feel his dick at my butt! I ignored it until I feel his hand on my another side of my butt! Fuck seriously. Had to alight at Lavendar and missed 3 trains cus it was so packed that I can't even take one step in.

Darling still can laugh at this incident!

Tsks what a day.

2010-07-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

I need to go for a liposuction. I need to remove all the excess fats from my belly, my arms, my thighs and my brain!

Went to IMM with Xiao Qian after school. Cotton On had once again earned money from me when I've swear not to buy anything from there ever since the shorts I've bought was torn!

Cousins FTW (Y)!

Favourite past time in school. Camwhoreeee!

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2010-07-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

How do I live without you.

How do I get through one night without you? If I had to live without you, what kind of life would that be? You're my world, my heart, my soul. If you ever leave, Baby, you would take away everything good in my life..

Without you there'd be no sun in my sky. There would be no love in my life. There'd be no world left for me. I don't know what I would do. I'd be lost if I lost you.
If you ever leave, Baby, you would take away everything real in my life..

And tell me now, how do I live without you, how do I breathe without you. If you ever go,
how do I ever, ever survive?

I've long forgotten what am I to you..

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2010-07-16T21:11:00.000+08:00

Now you want back your stuffs?Fuck off, dude. You have totally no rights to critisize my friend in any other way. I guess it should be the other way round. It's best that they have not known you from the start. Money suckers.

On the way back home now.

School's such a bore. Went to Darling's house and took a nap after school. Just two more months and we can bid goodbye to this course.

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2010-07-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

It takes two people to make a lie work. The person who tells it, and the one who believe it.

Things break all the time; Day breaks, waves break, voices break.

Promises break.

Heart breaks.

Love is supposed to move mountains, to make the world go round, to be all you need. But it fell apart at the details.

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2010-07-15T13:04:00.001+08:00

Having SBM module. Lecturer is super duper naggy!

爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味..